Why I don’t want to blog full time

Now I’ve been doing it for a couple of years, I find it a lot easier to tell people I’m a blogger. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t run around shouting about it or anything. But if it just so happens to come up naturally, then I’m happy to talk about it. One of the most common questions I get during these conversations is: “so do you hope to do it full time?”

And my answer is always a firm and resounding noI’m always surprised by how many people don’t necessarily get this. But people tend to fall into certain pools e.g. those who blog themselves and want to do it for a living and those who see blogging only for the ‘freebies’ and the experiences bloggers are fortunate enough to enjoy. I could go on about how hard I work on my blog and the amount of time I put into it but let’s be honest, unless you do it (or indeed something similar), you aren’t really going to get it. So to those people, I try to move the conversation ever so swiftly on.

We all begin blogging for different reasons, whether that’s being a fan of blogs yourself and wanting to give it a go or to find like-minded individuals and become part of a community. I’ve always wanted to be a writer and the job I was in at the time simply wasn’t giving me an outlet for writing, so my blog became that space where I could stretch my fingertips and just write. I never expected anyone would read what I wrote let alone comment and embrace it. I never expected to make friends from it and I certainly never expected to win an award for it. But despite all of that, I have never once yearned to give up my day job and dedicate my life to it. But why?

With success stories such as Zoella, Fleur De Force and Tanya Burr, it’s no mystery as what the appeal of becoming a full-time influencer is. But it’s worth remembering how we only see all the fantastic bits: the masses of blogger mail, the expensive houses and designer wardrobes. The pessimist in me just can’t help thinking about all the shitty bits. Even if we’re not talking about the mega-famous ones but those bloggers who take the plunge of making blogger their full-time career (oh hell, I admire you), I simply couldn’t handle not knowing exactly how much money I would be making that month. For some, perhaps that’s a bit of a thrill and even motivation but I’m a bit of a control freak and I think to do something like blogging full time, you need to be at least a little bit laid back.

There is a lot about work that I don’t like but including the constant paycheck (see above), I also like sticking to a schedule. From 8-4.30pm I am mostly in work mode. And by the same degree, when I walk out of those doors, I can, to an extent, leave my job behind. Blogging is a 24/7 kinda deal generally so when it’s your career, I can imagine how difficult it is to switch off. This is of course down to social media and while originally intended to be a bit for fun, for bloggers it’s just another part of their job that is constantly happening and you always feel you need to be on top of. Being self-employed also throws into other difficulties you wouldn’t otherwise experience such as not recieving maternity leave and holiday pay. Those days you deservedly take off are days you aren’t making money and that kinda sucks.

I also actually like having colleagues. One of the best parts of blogging is the people you meet and while you can all be of supportive of each other, realistically you just aren’t striving towards the same goal as everyone has their own interests at heart. And that’s fine! But sometimes it’s nice to be part of a team and working together. I imagine being your own boss is pretty kick-ass: working in your pjs and from bed, making all the decisions… But at the same time, not being held accountable for everything can be quite nice. Perhaps that’s just me being a wuss though. But in a boss you also have someone on hand who (hopefully) will help you develop professionally which can be hard to do on your own. It all comes down to your personality really and what you feel you need in order to grow – whether that’s a team of people or simply your own determination.

Don’t get me started on the challenges which bloggers now finding themselves fighting against. Instagram algorithm anyone? To be perfectly honest, most of the time blogging is a numbers game and even if blogging was my job, I just simply don’t have the energy to chase those numbers and to be blunt, I just don’t want to. I want to work to gain my readership but by providing good content, not my trying to be algorithms. For me, blogging is purely and simply an enjoyment and trying to reach targets and even monetise my little corner of the internet takes away that enjoyment away.

I must make it clear that this is in no way a “you shouldn’t do this because of X Y and Z” type post. I fully applaud those who do move into blogging full-time and I think it’s both brave and admirable. It just simply isn’t for me. For once, this weeks post wasn’t planned in the slightest. There are no pretty photos and my words have literally come straight from my brain with little to no editing. This is a topic I reckon a lot of us think about and to clarify, nobody is right or wrong. I’d love to know your thoughts on the matter, let me know in the comments!

Emily x